i live for the weekend. and mark of course

i live for the weekend. my life during weekdays is so borinG! hehe all work and sleep. no play! am i a dull bianca? hehehe i only like the times mark visits! thank God for sun! at least mark and i can talk ALL day hehehe. mark is heaven-sent. hayy nakakaguilty ksi he's sooooo nice to me. i feel i'm being unfair to him because i am not as martyr-like as i was in hs hehehe ;) mama had betamax tapes of my tv ads transferred to vcd. they looked scratchy because of age and molds :( i felt really nostalgic. i was sooo cute BACK THEN. hehehe i have to admit, even erika was cute. things seemed so simple back then. everybody was so happy. *sigh* something interesting (and good!) must happen to me hehehe.... win the lottery? hahaha i don't even buy tickets! i want an ipod!

sad realizations

hmmm as i grow older, i make more enemies or let's say i make less friends. am i making sense? *sigh* i don't know if it's because i know i have my real friends already and that's why i don't make any effort to make new friends or take care of them. i've changed a lot since high school. in high school i wanted to please everyone and just take everything, even if some people abused my "kindness". i realized that i have to love myself and express my opinion. have i gone to the extreme end of that trait and have become a bitch? i feel like i don't fit in anywhere. was i better off trying to please everyone? hayyy... firstborn woes.